Birthday’s are a funny thing – a time to celebrate being older but also a time to reflect on the past year, on the year ahead.
Last night, on the eve of another birthday – while waiting for sleep to come – I was reminded of a birthday 5 years ago, snuggled into my small Vancouver apartment eating food and playing games. An evening of silly and fun – my parents having taken the train out to visit for the week - meeting many of my friends for the first and only time. A memory of faces from years gone by, so few of those friends remain – time and distance dividing what once was.
Five years ago I was on the verge of a major life change – two weeks after my birthday I would be offered the chance to move to Australia, it would take several more months to be realized but yet here I am still.
A friend recently noted (paraphrasing) that change is wonderful – wonderful and scary but that when one door closes many more are opened and personal growth occurs.
I am not the girl I was 5 years ago, I am so far from her. I have blossomed into a woman I am so very proud to be, a woman who (finally) loves herself and along the way has found a new place, new friends who love me just the same. And the man perfect for me, who lives in this far away city that I now call my home.
It’s hard to predict where the future will take us but it’s always beautiful and exactly as it’s meant to be. I needed the long journey to meet him, to become beautifully me first. I had to jump into the unknown, take a chance on life and sitting here 5 years on I couldn’t be more grateful for all that has transpired, haapy and honest, lonely and lost. Good and bad equally cherished.
As I embark on a fresh year, I am reminded of how far I have come and how much more is still ahead. Our wedding day fast approaching, 10 weeks from now – another beginning – as a wife.
So much lies unknown in our futures but I know with certainty that I am loved from people across the globe, those from the past and those with me now, those who have passed and those yet to come into my life.
It’s a beautiful circle.
I’m excited to see where life will take me in the years ahead.