Birthday Reflections

Birthday’s are a funny thing – a time to celebrate being older but also a time to reflect on the past year, on the year ahead.

So many years ago... 

So many years ago... 

Last night, on the eve of another birthday – while waiting for sleep to come – I was reminded of a birthday 5 years ago, snuggled into my small Vancouver apartment eating food and playing games.  An evening of silly and fun – my parents having taken the train out to visit for the week - meeting many of my friends for the first and only time.  A memory of faces from years gone by, so few of those friends remain – time and distance dividing what once was.

Five years ago I was on the verge of a major life change – two weeks after my birthday I would be offered the chance to move to Australia, it would take several more months to be realized but yet here I am still. 

A friend recently noted (paraphrasing) that change is wonderful – wonderful and scary but that when one door closes many more are opened and personal growth occurs.

I am not the girl I was 5 years ago, I am so far from her.  I have blossomed into a woman I am so very proud to be, a woman who (finally) loves herself and along the way has found a new place, new friends who love me just the same.  And the man perfect for me, who lives in this far away city that I now call my home.

It’s hard to predict where the future will take us but it’s always beautiful and exactly as it’s meant to be.  I needed the long journey to meet him, to become beautifully me first.  I had to jump into the unknown, take a chance on life and sitting here 5 years on I couldn’t be more grateful for all that has transpired, haapy and honest, lonely and lost.  Good and bad equally cherished.

As I embark on a fresh year, I am reminded of how far I have come and how much more is still ahead.  Our wedding day fast approaching, 10 weeks from now – another beginning – as a wife. 

So much lies unknown in our futures but I know with certainty that I am loved from people across the globe, those from the past and those with me now, those who have passed and those yet to come into my life. 

It’s a beautiful circle.

I’m excited to see where life will take me in the years ahead.

Still miss you daddy, everyday!

Still miss you daddy, everyday!